Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Little X's blessing

X was blessed by his daddy.  It was a beautiful day and I am so grateful for this little man in my life.

A Little Swimming

My kids LOVE swimming which is a good thing because so do I.  It' too hot to do anything else in the summer but swim so it is a win win for everyone. 

Heavy Heart

So I don't even think people look at blogs anymore...not with all the new stuff out now days.  But I do print my  blog every year and I want my kids to have these memories, our memories.  So with that I write in hopes one day in the future that when life is tough for them that they will be able to find some peace in this. 

Dear kids,
    As I teach in the high school for years now and have served in the young women for years as well, I have seen and grown a lot.  I see these incredible kids with so much talent and things to offer coming from good, solid homes, as well as kids coming from hard, harsh, ugly environments.  With all that I have seen I have seen the worth and confidence of too many young people crumble under peer pressure, to fit in, to be cool, to hide from their real demons, and for many other reasons.  I watch like in slow motion these kids go down a self destructive path and it costs them much.  Costs them their families trust, their self worth, their self respect, their reputation, their souls. 
     This is not how it was meant to be.  although I look at the world today I know full well I didn't have near the stuff that you have to deal with now.  I thought my life was tough as a teenager, now youth see it as impossible to stay good.  Don't!  Don't ever get in a place in your life where you tell yourself you can't do it, you can't stand up to peer pressure, your not good enough, pretty enough, or loved enough.  YOU ARE.  Not only is me and dad your biggest fans and will love you until the day you forever, but the Lord is on your side, more importantly you need to be on His side.  You are beautiful inside and out, I have spent to many years since you were all born thinking about how I could instill in each of you the confidence you will need to face what you will face.  Never doubt yourself, Never doubt that your a child of God.  Always know someone is there, and it's never more than you can handle. 
      Don't let anything or anyone pull you down.  Learn as early on as you can who you are and where you come from.  And stand strong by don't hesitate, stand firm in what you are.  Don't ever change to make yourself "fit in."  The cost is too high when that is done, trust me I see it on a daily basis.  You never need to try and be something your not to look cool.  Someone is out there that is perfect for you just the way you are.  Without putting on a mask for people or changing who you are, but just the way you are is perfect.  You will have weakness, and shortcomings, and yet you are the perfect  you.  Don't allow anyone to ever take that confidence from you.  I love you kids more than I can put in words.  And your all still so small now, Mya 6 Marlee 4 Treyvin 3 and X 9 months.  I look at you know and think you have your whole life infront of you.  and if somehow someway if I can point you in the right direction and give you all the love and confidence you need to soar.  Home is your safe place, and I pray that you will soar, and you will conquer all that stands in your way or tries to tell you or make you feel that you are not good enough the way you are.  You are.  Pick friends that lift you up and accept you for you.  Pick friends that make you want to be better and are kind and understanding.  Don't try and fit in "that group".  Trust me I spent way too many years trying to fit in that group and that one.  And guess what I never did.  I wasted so much for what?  Nothing it got me no where, but a broken self esteem and no confidence in who I was.  It doesn't matter what size you are beauty is in each and everyone of you.  It doesn't matter if your hair isn't as long or thick as you think it should be, your beautiful and handsome.  You may not be as coordinated as you wanted to be, it's ok your still amazing.  I promise to never give up you if you promise to never give up on yourself.  I love you kids


Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Little Pieces of our Summer

Google eyes!

These two LOVE to play in their pillow cases!

 Licking the brownie batter daddy made for Family Home Evening, best part about it!

                                                   Marlee being a goof ball with Q-Tips!
                                        Xandler, my little man, the last piece to my heart.

Everyday this summer me and the kids went running/bike riding.  Although there was certainly days of whining, they did very good and really started to love it. 

 These two are touching each other and there is no screaming and name calling, mmm must be the sleeping part that has allowed such a peaceful one in a lifetime moment. 
 Our weakness in this house for the girls is COOKIE DOUGH!

 The girls love to get their hands on the boys and dress them up.  Trey thinks it's great!                


Walks in the parks with friends.


                                   DOG PILE!



Xandler not liking the laying in the leaves idea

Mya Turned 6

Oh my Mya....there is so much I could say about this sweet girl.  It has been so amazing to watch her grow up into a little girl.  She has matured and become quite the little helper.  She has such a soft big heart.  Although she is definitely a leader and loves to be the boss of her siblings and friends, she does have a sweet sensitive heart and hates it when she has disappointed mom or dad.  I love my tender moments with her when she will let me snuggle with her, or go on mommy daughter dates.  I will cherish these memories forever with her.  I know she was my oldest to be an example to my other kids and I know she will be a great example. 

We went to the Roy Aquatic Center with a few of her
                              friends to celebrate her big day!!                        

Treyvin Turned 4!!!

This little, crazy, wild, loud, loving, rough, all boy turned 4.  We had a great birthday party for him in the backyard with swimming, piƱatas, cupcakes and family.  Trey is such a handful and is always literally always on the run and escaping  from me in any way shape or form but I am so blessed to be his mom and to love him.  I know he supposed to be in my family and I know he has big things ahead of him, now if only I can build a 20ft high fence to keep him safe until he reaches 18 will be another thing.