Im alive

It's been awhile since I have blogged sorry about the absence. Life has been busy but when is it not? I've been thinking lately, deep thinking really, and this is more for my own personal thoughts to be recorded. I have had several students come to me recently and open up a bit and or I can see a change in them, good and bad. My heart breaks for these kids that are so.....lost is really what comes to mind. I am never shocked when I come to school and have an email that one of my students has been suspended for stealing, beating up someone or drugs. I know we have to be so careful as not to preach religion in schools these days...infact you can't bring it up at all really. And there in lies the problem. There is no religion, no God, no higher being that some of these kids know about and we are not allowed to tell them. We as a society ask ourselves what is wrong with children these days? Well lots of things but who's to take the blame? Media for the unrealistic pressures or parents who are never around nor show love to their child? Video games with such horrible violence, bullies (who really are insecure little souls who are trying to survive the only way they know how) who beat on some innocent, defenseless peer. Is it the teachers, or neighbors or friends of those who are crying out for help and no one hears them or chooses to not take the cry for help seriously.
Being a kid is hard, as far as I am concerned the hardest stage in life. Trying to be someone, and yet who is it they want to be? Trying to measure up to people, fit in, feel loved and accepted. Too many of our kids are left to wonder what it feels like to be loved, what it feels like to truly love someone, to many kids try yr after yr to fit in....somewhere with someone.
Why do humans do this to other humans? Is it our human nature to be and act so loathsome that we feel a right to treat others the way we do? No I don't think so, I truly think their is good in most people but the world we live in is so good at bringing out the bad tempered, the violence, the harshness in us all. I want to take my sweet children and hide them in a closet, where nothing can harm them, yes a bubble we shall say. Will I? Of course not, but what I see at the halls in school and out on the streets makes me cringe to think my kids will be in that world so very soon. I know I cannot control the environment they will always be in, but I can always make them feel loved. I pray it is enough to get them through what lies ahead for them, I pray they are strong and will be a positive influence to others. Hope and faith is all there is to hang onto at times, a hope for something better and faith that we can get there!