I am alive

Ugh, sorry I have been terrible about blogging. I have missed so many events, Thanksgiving, christmas parties and well just the day to day things. I will get something posted very very soon, as in a day or two! When I get a day off it is so packed with last minute Christmas shopping, caring for sick kids, or won't lie I have even snuck in a couple of naps on the miracle days that both girls go down at the same time. I always am feeling eshuated. I can give you a little update on pregnancy though, that does not need pictures. Things are going well with baby, went in for doc apt and things look good. I am due officially it looks like July 25, so close to Mya's b-day, but I am sure I will go a week early again, if I chose to to a c-section. That is a whole other topic. I asked her about that, Mya was delivered vaginally with no problems at all, and Marlee was breech so she was a c-section. Very very few doctors will let you delivery vaginally after a c-section, it is too risky of your uterus bursting. After a nice long chat with doc this is my option. I would actually love to delivery vaginally way more than c-section. There is good and bad about both in my book. C-section is great because it's scheduled, you go through NO labor pains, contractions NOTHING, it's heaven, You don't have to push, it really is nice. The down side is recovery SUCKS. I hated the actually c-section surgery, horrible feeling and not to mention the worst pain of your life when you try and walk for days after, it really is bad. And you can't lift anything over 10lbs for 6 weeks. That is really not an option when I have a 3 year old and a 12 month old at the time of the babies arrival. It was HORRID not being able to pick up Mya after I had Marlee, or anything for that matter, the garbage, a vacumn anything. So I am shooting for a vaginal delivery but there is a percentage, very small percentage that giving birth vaginally after a c section can cause your uterus to rupture which is very deadly for both baby and mom. A sitution the doc says you don't want to be in, it's very very bad! So I ask myself, it is a tiny percentage that that will happen to me, but if I do happen to fall in that tiny percentage it could mean my life and or the babies. UMMMMM
Besides the visit and the nice chat about possible death, I feel ok. Been a bit nauseated with this one and SO SO SO SO tired. I have never been so tired in my life, not even with either of my other pregnancies. There are days I roll out of bed and feel sick to my stomach I feel so tired. Those are the days that really suck when I have to entertain Mya and care for Marlee. I swore for the longest time I had mono. But I talked to the doctor about this and she said that my body just has not had time to really recover from my last delivary 5 months ago. That this pregnancy will be pretty tough on my body just cause it has had NO recovery time. NOTE TO PEOPLE READING THIS: DON'T GET PREGO WHEN YOU HAVE A 4 MONTH OLD. Unless of course you love being stressed out beyond anything, and want to feel exhausted everyday and feel not so good!
Anyways, people have it worse, I can't throw to much of a pity party for myself. Will be posting pics of Thanksgiving and other stuff shortly.